I Forgive You…

I forgive you for everything. The lies, the secrets, the pain, the cheating.. I forgive all of it. Over 4 years you were in and out of my life. You were my first for many things, and I will always be grateful for the life lessons you taught me. I forgive you for keeping me a secret from your girlfriend for a year and a half. I know how much it hurt her, but nobody ever asked how it made me feel. I felt like i wasn’t good enough. I felt you were ashamed of me. Did you know how that knife felt every time I saw you kiss her? No. Because you never cared to ask. But I forgive you. I forgive you for texting her you love her while you were laying in bed with me. I showed you off, took you to the beach, let you live in my house… I paid for a hotel and your girlfriends ticket to a show, and y’all ditched and made some bull shit story up not to stay in the hotel. But! I forgive you. I forgive you cheating on every girl with me. Yes, it was my fault too, and I apologize to everyone who was hurt, but I was young and easily persuaded. She was my first love and I would have chosen her over family. I DID choose her over family… I hope you can forgive me like I have forgiven her. Life goes on…. I would also like to thank you for everything. Without you I wouldn’t be me. I wouldn’t be the strong independent female I am. I wouldn’t be open minded and loving to even the most horrible person. I was a blank page, and you put words on it. I hope your short life is as amazing as you always dreamed. I hope you learned as I did. Goodbye.
The Girl Who Never Mattered